I have not been here in forever and I feel really quite bad about it - my last journal post was a couple of weeks into my first year of uni, and I'm about to go back for my second. I suppose I just haven't been writing much at all for a long time now - I just haven't felt any kind of need, and as writing for me was always a way for me to deal with things, rather than something I did with any kind of discipline, nothing has been written. In a way, this is a very good thing, because I am truly, genuinely happy; but it's also sad because I do love writing, and I miss it. I'm sure it will come back one day, because it always does, but at the moment my poetry is very very sparse.
I had a wonderful first year of university, and I learnt an awful lot about myself and other people and about English Literature. I am beginning to discover the fields that fascinate me, and this year I will be sharing a house with my new friends, all of whom I met through the Feminist Society (cue 'no men allowed' jokes), and who I am really looking forward to living with.
I had a couple of articles published in the uni magazine, although I don't really think journalism suits me, and I played and sang in masses for the Catholic Society - I am now co-Musical director, which is exciting and terrifying and very hard work. I've learnt that I am terrible at staying in contact with people; that I am a very lazy cook (and, to tell the truth, lazy in general). I've rediscovered a love of sewing, especially embroidery; I have flown to a different country solo for the very first time (to Germany, to see a friend who spent the last year living there); and I have discovered that I use far too many dashes in my written work. I've done a terrible job at reading my set texts and instead acquired a gleeful appreciation of comics; I've developed a keen interest in Old English and ancient Scandinavian texts; I've been to Iceland for the first time (and loved it); and I'm seriously considering applying to study in Australia for my third year.
It has all been very exciting and I have loved every second of it, and I have very high hopes for this coming year, too. I am very sorry I haven't been around - I just feel rather ashamed logging in with no work to show for myself, but I have missed talking to you all and I will try to come on more, and maybe start writing again, although I will have to really work at it with some kind of discipline now I no longer have all the complicated feelings I was wrestling with a couple of years ago.
Please let me know how you're all doing, and I will come by to pick up your comments. I'll also have a dig around in my computer and maybe post a couple of mysterious poems which I don't remember writing, but obviously did. Also, if I do fail at coming back to dA, you can always head over to my tumblr: avibus-libri.tumblr.com and send me a message, because I open it habitually in my browser these days.
I hope you're all well and happy - I'm now going to dig through some of the 11000 posts in my inbox and read some of the gorgeous poetry I have been missing out on in my absence